Not everybody gets a great college life

Finding myself packed by this approximated cube ( my hostel room ), I ask myself ” Is this the college life ??”
For most of the time, I sit alone in my room (as I am an anti-social person, I speak less, somewhat shy n is less interactive in comparison to others) wondering that why people consider college life to be one of the best part of life. I guess they claim so because they enjoy a lot with their friends (not in my case); also because of the diversity and the change of scenery and the freedom of being out on their own means total independence. Even for some, college life becomes a life changing phase because they get someone special i.e. life partner:P In nutshell, college life has loads of fun, masti, n hub for all kinds of enjoyment (don’t forget not for me).

For me it’s difficult to digest that college life is blissful. When I was in 11th-12th, I heard a lot from my seniors and cousins who were studying in college that life at college is awesome, but now I doubt on them. Prior of getting into college I made a long list of things to be done at college and started imagining about it, but somehow dreams are dreams, which care for them. If every dream comes true, life will be boring and dull.

Sitting in this lonely room for most of the time, many a time, I think I should suicide or run away at a distinct land from these materialistic things which no more gives me pleasure, no more gives me comfort, no more makes me happy because I am fed up of this fake smile on my face and I can’t bear anything anymore. GIVEN UPP..!!

At the end I stop myself, control myself, from doing any kind of unscrupulous activity because I am fearful of life after death , I am fearful about my parents, fear that they have to undergo a huge pain and agony , if I do something negative. My happiness and satisfaction cannot be obtained at the cost of theirs. Moreover I still think God will help me, anyhow he will turn the tide. What more is that life won’t be interesting if there are no problems. Let me face and show that I am stronger to fight against challenges. Let me prepare myself for the upcoming life from now.

But the mystery is for how much time I have to wait??? How long will it take to become everything normal???? When will I be able to wear the same shoe which others are wearing in college..???? When will y college life begin???
These questions force me to think again “Is this the college life???”

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